BeatleWomania

When that moment sprouts

Out of unprecedented warning

When that moment comes

I feel disturbance unmatched

Fear was seldom this conceptualized

I am outside it all

When that moment hits

External life is static

Nothing is real

Or ever has been

What that moment is here

I feel chosen without reason

I am not worthy of this terror

When that moment returns

I nearly forget it happens at all

But I remember its purpose

I have to get out of here

When that moment leaves

I feel temporary ataraxis

This is the most real I have ever felt

I am the nucleus to a ghost

“You’re a smart girl. How can you be so arrogant to think you’re able to see only one reality?”

-Constance, American Horror Story

Don’t let anybody intimidate you out of being yourself. Seriously, when people say stuff like “Oh, that’s not very normal.” or “You’re weird.”, take it as a compliment! Normalcy is boring, and in my opinion, has lost all meaning in its definition. Trying to avoid sounding like a pompous “special” person, I’m proud to say I was never like most girls. And ya know what, I liked it that way, so I kept my mojo goin’. Challenging “the norm” and questioning authority are two of many key approaches to becoming an individual. For real, I’m not about to have individuality go extinct; it would be too sad of a day. Being “weird” or acting quirky makes you amiable and interesting. Maybe you have to be born with it, but it’s pretty easy and quick to know if you’re, well, different. Like an apple at a vegetable convention.

“I don`t think I`m very much like anyone else, really. I`m sure there are aspects of other actors that I share, but I don`t see anybody else and go, “Damn, they stole my thing”. I`m me, and I like that there are people who have an appreciation for that”

-Zooey Deschanel

Assume less; consider more

I believe there’s always a loophole to anything in this life. This is probably why I consider myself to be a very conflicted person. I tend to self-contradict when I’m faced with stating my point of view on contradictory topics. The way I see it is, each conflicting party has some sense of logic or rationalism in their argument. If they didn’t, their input would be quickly and easily dismissed by the rest of the public. But since deep down all of us relish the nature of a good old heated debate, we make room for new perspective everyday- even if we consider ourselves to be stubborn people. We thrive on the idea that our idea will inevitably be challenged by another person or group. How else are we supposed to prove our intelligence or ability to support our independent thoughts? I’m all about debate- I think its pertinent to revealing what kind of person you are to the core. It can be fun, it can be intense, it can be stimulating, it can be aggravating, it can be anything. The person who controls the mood of the argument wins the argument. The whole point of debate in my eyes is to achieve a harmonic and agreed idea, with a whole lot of compromise along the way. The approach that’s overlooked in debate is that of diplomacy- keeping calm and throwing away the key to a lock box of mind. Everything leads back to the greater good of human kind, or it should at least. It seems to me that debate has become nothing more of a chance for people to spout their beliefs in a narcissistic manner. It’s like people just want to declare their ideas of so-called brilliance, leaving no room for interpretation from the other end. I’m not an expert on this, or anything at this point for that matter. Yet, I just feel like if people take a good hard look at themselves and the effect they’re capable of having, so much of the world could change for the better, for all of us. None of us should be afraid to be wrong; none of us should fear to be small. It’s extremely rewarding to practice the essence of altruism. Think of the big picture- and the small things will cease to matter. Don’t get caught up in the heat of debate so much that you’ve forgotten why we’re all here in the first place- to live, to progress, and to love. Be aware of the things you say, and more importantly, the things you do.

I want to stand as close to the edge as I can without going over. Out on the edge you see all the kinds of things you can’t see from the center.
-Kurt Vonnegut

A smile, a motivational comment, a witty anecdote, a subtle acknowledgment, an inspirational thought, or a universal truth- all of these are things I try to incorporate into my everyday life. More so, I make it a point to have someone besides myself be the receiver of the message. We’re all here for a certain amount of time, and by here I mean Earth, our home, the only home we’ve ever known. It’s my train of thought that since we all have an expiration date, that we should indulge and savor the days that we have pre-perish. For all of us to be on the same page, or same bite I should say, we must all co-exist harmoniously. In order to this, just be nice! See the good in people, extrapolate it, and make them realize it. When you think about it, why would there be any other way to live? The world has plenty of surprises for all of us. The more we’re willing to accept those unknowns in most open of arms, the happier we’ll all be. Find the things you love, do them everyday, relish them, talk about them, then find more that you love. Soon, if all of us realize the human potential we have to make ourselves our best selves, there will be no animosity left to overcome. John Lennon used to broadcast his idealistic way of thinking by making people realize they were the key to changing the world; if every person realized their ability of self-transformation, we could affect all those around us, and like ripples in a tide, eventually change the world. The only remora we have standing in our way is ourselves. Realize your abilities, grab on to them and hang on to them, and think of the good of humankind.

Sup world!? It’s been a fun day, and a productive one. Today marks day 9 of my residence in Burlington and enrollment at Champlain College. I’ll be real…it was a rough start. Externally, it looked like I was doing fine- shootin’ the shit with my new roommate and pushing myself past the comfort zone, yet I was yearning for the familiarities of my hometown. I was riddled with insecurities, bewilderment, and shock that I was actually living in the place I’ve aspired to since 2009. It seemed I wanted it so badly for so long that when it actually came to fruition, it was surreal! Nonetheless, these feelings dissipated within the first couple days of moving in and after diving into the countless “Hi, I’m Maeve, from Fairfield, CT“‘s and “Nice to meet you“‘s. It’s nothing short of a familiar sensation for me- being thrown into an environment of which I’m not entirely cognizant. I simply dove into my memories and reminded myself how many times I’ve felt this way and how easily I could pull myself out of this funk. This is one of those reoccurring times in my life where I have to take everything with a grain of salt, keep moving forward, and keep positive thoughts. I’ve made it a daily habit to do so since then. I mean, it’s not too difficult- I’m surrounded by positive reinforcement, reminders of how much I’ve accomplished to get here, and awareness that at this particular moment, I’m creating my future. How can I even think about wasting the time of my life on ambivalence or cumbersome feelings that result from unreliable sources? I’m here and I’m gonna rock it. GOOD NIGHT!

Today marks the inception of both blogging and tweeting for me. Already a Facebook user and avid web surfer, my online activity is looking to become much more frequent in the future- not to say my immediate social interactions will go out the window. I’m looking to express my daily thoughts and opinions through this thing, and hopefully will get some readers along the way. Adios for now!